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Job Loss – Faith and Trust

It has been a while since I shared the early journey of my sexual abuse.  It is interrupted due to yet another job loss.  For me, it ties all together.  I believe we get what we need (not necessarily what … Continue reading

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Job Loss Day 4 – Fear and Despair

I was diligent sending out resumes to many corporations.  It is so much different today than 20 years ago.  Everything is done on line.  I felt fairly sure if I could get in front of somebody, I could sell myself. … Continue reading

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Job Loss – Day Three – Letting the Secret Out

Day 3 came and that was the day I had to tell my daughter I had lost yet another job.  This wasn’t a fun day for me.   How would my daughter react? I’ve worked so hard all my life … Continue reading

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Job Loss – Day Two – Trying to Make Sense of it All

Today I am posting the journal writing of the second day.  Yes, I have been focused in this blog sharing my journey with healing from sexual abuse.  So, you may ask, why is it that you are now writing about job … Continue reading

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Healing from Sexual Abuse – A Transformational Journey – Part 53

I just reconnected to this tonight (24 hours later).  The first words I read are the sentence just above.  I am so tired.  So much is going on inside and feel I am dealing with polar opposites inside again.  I … Continue reading

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Healing from Sexual Abuse – A Transformational Journey – Part 45

The body slept last night but not so sure the rest of me slept.  Dreams.  Not bad dreams but some sadness associated with them.  Wanted to sleep more. I realized this morning that I am not in the center of … Continue reading

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Healing from Sexual Abuse – A Transformational Journey – Part 40

It was a short night again.  Woke up this morning with a couple of memories and just not time or desire to process.  Been sad today.  Reality.  So what the fuck.  I’ve had a headache all day and so tired.  … Continue reading

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