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Job Loss – Day 5 – Victim – Part of the Process

I was looking forward to this day as I awaited for word on this consultant position with a company in California.  Over the weekend I did due diligence learning about the company and bringing together all the material I could … Continue reading

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Job Loss – Day One – Shock

“I have to let you go, Mary. Nothing personal – last one in, first to go,” my boss told me. I looked into his eyes trying to determine if this was a joke or serious. I had only been there … Continue reading

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Healing from Sexual Abuse – A Transformational Journey – Part 53

I just reconnected to this tonight (24 hours later).  The first words I read are the sentence just above.  I am so tired.  So much is going on inside and feel I am dealing with polar opposites inside again.  I … Continue reading

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Healing from Sexual Abuse – A Transformational Journey – Part 40

It was a short night again.  Woke up this morning with a couple of memories and just not time or desire to process.  Been sad today.  Reality.  So what the fuck.  I’ve had a headache all day and so tired.  … Continue reading

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Healing from Sexual Abuse – A Transformational Journey – Part 39

am experiencing dis-ease this evening.  Not sure why that is.  Some anxiousness – some sadness.  Busy day at work providing distractions.  Now left with myself again.  I don’t know which direction to go in so am going to trust the … Continue reading

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Healing from Sexual Abuse – A Transformational Journey – Part 30

It is late tonight.  Wanted to connect before going to bed. Mother:  How are you tonight? Me:  I am tired.  Very tired.  The emotions are so tiring for me.  It is such a temptation to put them all back on … Continue reading

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Healing from Sexual Abuse – A Transformational Journey – Part 29

Me:  I am back and I want you to know how much I hate you. Dad:  That is a big turn around. Me:  I hate you so much for taking everything away from me so I wouldn’t have any fucking … Continue reading

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